Spiritual Principles in Action: Living It!

I haven't been active on my blogs lately, or anywhere else for that matter. I've had so much to deal with at home, and helping the kids with their emotions. My highest priority has been my mental and emotional state. The point from which I create my experience has to be Love and Joy, now more than ever.

A process server came to the door Saturday morning, Nov 15. He had a letter stating that my house was bought at auction the minute it became available, and that we had to be out by the 19th. I was a wreck! Fear grabbed me by the throat so quickly that I was trembling for a few hours. It took all the conscious strength and determination I could muster to claim OKness and trust. The gentleman told me to call the attorney's office Monday morning and see if they could give me more time. That went well. They gave me until Dec. 3. After that, the server will be back to verify that we are still in the house, and report back to the court. Then a hearing will be scheduled. With the holidays, it could be a week or two before the hearing. At that point, I can ask the judge for more time and I'm told that he will likely give us 10 extra days to two weeks. That means we might have until after Christmas.

In the meantime, I've had to look for housing for us. Section 8 is closed and our county's housing project has a waiting list for at least a year. There is an apartment complex in a neighboring town where my mother-in-law lives, and we used to live there. The manager is doing everything she can to get us approved. The rent is subsidized. I really don't want to live there, and feel inside that it's not where we're going, but I need to make sure I've done everything I can to insure we have a place to go.

I contacted all of my legislators about the situation because my lender refused a full mortgage payment and refused to refinance. Under the new Hope for Home Owners law they are obligated to work with home owners who are still living in the house and wanting to make payment arrangements. The Attorney General may take the case based on the fact that Bank of America has violated the law.

I'm not one to run to a lawyer for every little thing and I hadn't thought of contacting legislators until yesterday. I just happened to be out front with my son, doing something we never do, when a neighbor was driving by. She stopped and asked how we're doing and I told her what's going on. She had an impressive story about a problem she called a representative about and got quickly resolved. It was on her recommendation that I reached out. The whole thing was just too synchronistic to ignore. What will come of this? I have no idea, but it is possible that the Attorney General will have all proceedings on the house frozen pending investigation and possible hearings. On a larger scale, they may bring a class action suit against B of A. I'm quite sure they've done the same to other families. I understand my responsibility in the situation, but they refused my payment and violated the law by refusing to refinance my house. Instead they dumped it for $40,000. My mortgage was $182,000. If they had refinanced with me at the median between those two amounts, I could have made the payments.

Anyway, that's why I haven't been active online. Each day fear tries to convince me that we are in dire states and each day I recommit myself to trust in Spirit. I must be centered in Love, Joy, and Gratitude to hear guidance, follow inspiration, and create a positive and supportive outcome. My children also need the best from me right now. Michael, the 5-yr-old, doesn't understand but when he hears any discussion about it, he feels bad. Gianna, my 11-yr-old, was terrified at first, but is getting better with faith and appreciating what IS right now. The last thing either of them need is for Mom to be in fear.

Yesterday I had an epiphany. I felt an expanded awareness of All That Is and the Love that flows to me from All. I have been opening and surrendering, but not fully accepting. I let go of all boundaries and allowed the immense Love to flow into and through me. It was like being bathed in cleansing Light. I opened wide my heart and my total being and yelled into the Allness, "I accept! I accept!" Something changed in me at that moment. I felt more of an openness than ever before and felt myself receiving on an energetic level. I just absolutely knew that I am being supported and supplied right now. I know that we are moving toward something more wonderful, more open, more joyful, and more aligned with the purpose for my life.