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I... I don't want to get my hopes up too much.. but... get this... and I am not kidding...   I THINK I AM ON THE VERGE OF EMPLOYMENT!!!!! It's true! I went into a vitamin store and lo and behold, they didn't say "go home and apply online." Nope! They handed me a REAL LIVE PAPER APPLICATION and that's how it all started. They make you fill it out there. I guess to make sure you're not illiterate. I said that, thinking it was funny, but the woman didn't laugh. But don't worry, by the time I was done with that place (I OWNED it) she was laughing and telling me the manager would call me for sure. YAY ME!!!!!!!  She also pointed to his picture, he's a big ol' bodybuilder but she said, "don't worry, he's a real teddybear!" I already know about that type, she didn't have to clue me in. 

Now all I have to do is fix my sleeping thing. As it stands right now I'm up all night and sleep alot in the day. I keep trying to flip it back to normal but the motivation eludes me. Like I'll do good for a few days then say to heck with it. Really, when else will I be able to live like this? It's all about to change and I'll have to conform once more. 

I started this new blog because I realized, this is a whole new era! And just because one era comes to a close doesn't mean you have to stop blogging! It's just that I never blogged before all this happened, so I associate blogging with my mental blowout. I just have to mentally regroup is all. So I'm thinking I might continue to blog, filling up thousands upon thousands of different pages, accounts, and websites, till I die. 

Also it occured to me today that I forgot to tell you about the "29 Does" ordeal. It's worth telling, trust me. But my blood sugar is low at the moment and I have to eat. I'm exhausted. Today when I got back from the vitamin place I had to crash for a few hours. And I slept over 8 hours earlier! Sometimes just doing something out of the house makes me exhausted. And it's not in my body. It's in my brain. My head gets heavy and it pulls me down till I sleep, then I'm good to go again. Sometimes driving does it to me, which is a real phenomenon. I wonder if it has to do with the fact that I couldn't drive for a long time after the blowout first happened. Like, that part of my brain was blown, but now it's healed, but has to try hard to drive now? Like, when I'm driving, is my brain working overtime? Cause sometimes it makes me feel like I've just read an entire set of encyclopedias and got tested on it all. That's got to change. I wonder if I'll be able to convince these people at the vitamin place that I'm a regular person.