Nothing Prevents the Episodes

One would think that they would help, at least to bring me happiness. I'm sure they do help, in the way I can notice, but then again I can never trust my perception, be that as it may I will tell you that the speed of which the demon swings come at me has seemed at least for now to be slow, almost still. But I know they are hiding just below the surface read. There always ready. All through out the day today, and every day I will be nibbling in secrecy like a school boy my candy. There names are the names of thefts, but also they are the kindest menders of the mind and soul.

Lithium 1800mg

Lamictal 250mg

Celexa 40mg

Abilify 20mg

Seroquel 175mg

And maybe, and I'll stress the maybe, I will take a multi vitamin.

This cocktail is the end result of a long, long line of trial and error. The out come, (I say this slowly and with tears welling up), is the loss of a very dear, dear old friend. They took my sweet mania from me. My god I miss her, my memories live on all but forgotten. She will break though she always does. She must, I miss her.