10/11/09 Since it may be awhile before I post something even remotely interesting, and even longer before I post any actual "writing", I send you all to this creative writing post I did ages ago. Like I said then, the story itself had nothing to do with the article posted, or anything even remotely in common with the actual events. The rest of the explanation was almost 100% true. I DO have a manuscript in 8th grade handwriting that resembles this piece. I DID (and DO) have a frien... Read Full Story

10/2/09 It is definitely fall, Internet. The season I am named for, and a season of change. My favorite season, with holidays just around the corner. I am a sucker for the leaves turning and falling, and then the kids' laughter when they jump into the piles of muted reds, oranges and yellows. It makes me smile, the crisp air and evenings made for stews and soups, chili and warm tea.It's been quiet, which I'm not complaining about. I'm also not counting on it staying quiet, because ... Read Full Story

First off, for any unanswered emails, unreturned phone calls, etc., I apologize. I have been on the internet only to play mindless games on Facebook the last few days. LOL You are not forgotten, I am simply taking a moment to collect myself and have some space.I think if I were to have a "group response", if there was such a thing in the varying circumstances I'm dealing with right now, I would be able to say the exact same things to 99% of the people I HAVE dealt with in the last week. That ... Read Full Story

In the center of the chaos, life is still going on. The kids are as busy as ever, and I find myself wanting to make more memories, take more pictures, do more with them, for them. I want them to enjoy the minute between dances, so to speak. There are no questions, now, just getting on with life, and for a minute, it's like it never was.I can't let that give me time to relax though. There is no "never was" or rewind on this. There is "what next", "how..." and everything else going with it. T... Read Full Story

I have always known that eventually this would come. While I stilll feel it isn't my story to tell, I don't really understand why I feel that way. This is my family's story, after all, and there is that extension there. This story runs through my husband's veins, my childrens veins. This story has always been there, waiting to be told, and the last few days have proven that the main two "characters" if you will... well, one is unsure which way to step, the other is hell bent on wreaking havo... Read Full Story

OK. This is the one where I'm going to rant a little bit, so be patient.The pressure I'm under right now, that my family is under right now, is unexplainable. I can really only speak for myself, and right now, I'm doing everything I can to keep myself busy, keep my mind occupied, and push forth on the path life has taken right now. Do I know what the future holds? No. This is a fine line I'm walking, in more ways than one right now, and all I want to do? Is scream at the top of my lungs. I do... Read Full Story

I turned thirty-one last Tuesday. I can't complain, I had a good b-day, and September has, so far, been a good month. The kids are flourishing in school, Miss T is enjoying being the sole attention getter during the day, and aside from the allergies that roll around every year, we're all in top form.I can't complain, like I said. And yet... I'm sitting here, enjoying some (rare!!) quiet, and trying to prepare myself for the coming weeks. I think it's going to be interesting, these changes and... Read Full Story

8/26/09 Yesterday was the first day of school here at Casa Diva. 4th grade for Miss Lyss, 1st for Jake. She, of course, was beyond thrilled to be going back- school is one of her favorite things on the planet. Where she gets it? No idea! LOL He was reluctant, and after last year, who can really blame him. But, we were positive and encouraging, preparing him for the changes in advance, and we made it into the building with him all smiles.This year marked the year of Jonas in our hou... Read Full Story

8/5/09 I had a conversation this evening that I wish, now, I'd had ages ago. But like everything else, maybe it just wasn't time before. Maybe I needed, personally, to have the emotions I did and the thoughts that I did so that when everything started to unravel, or come together- it's all in how you see it, and some situations are both- it would all happen at the same time, piece by piece.It's odd to think how one choice can change so many things, have an effect on so many things.... Read Full Story

7/30/09 I keep opening my Word program, or coming here and clicking "Create"... then I just sit there. The paper in my Word program isn't touched. I type a couple lines here, get disgusted with it, and just move on to something else. When I'm not writing, there's a problem.I have been shaking my head a lot the last two weeks at people. I've seen the ugliest sides of myself and have questioned myself, J, and everyone around me, about everything. I've wanted to step in front of my fa... Read Full Story