So we've had a hell of a couple of weeks. First my husband lost his job. That was a huge blow, especially with this economy and three kids. All I did was cry for about a week. The day after he found out he was getting laid off, I found out that biopsies I had done on two moles on my back turned out a little scary. They said they showed pre-cancerous cells, so now I need to go in for two different surgeries to have skin removed around where the moles are-there goes my stress level. And ... Read Full Story

Today is even worse than yesterday. I can't stop crying today. I feel pulled in every different direction. I can't think straight. I want to eat everything that isn't nailed down. I feel worthless. I feel tiny and insignificant. I feel like I'm in the middle of a million different crisis.I haven't felt this bad since right before I wound up in the nut house (again I can call it that since I was officially admitted there). I'm sitting here now hoping that typing this out will be thera... Read Full Story

As I sit here indulging in peanut butter wafers, watching A Walk in The Clouds for the thousandth time while Dare Devil is on the last leg of his nap and I'm waiting for the Princess to take hers, I am agitated. I can't stop feeling that way for anything. I also feel really, really down, really sad, really alone, and even angry.I should tell you that on top of the postpartum psychosis I have, I also found out that I'm bipolar and OCD. So I started out feeling good this morning, cleaning,... Read Full Story

The other day Bill and I were at a flea market and I decided to sell some of my dresses from dances I went to in high school. It kind of broke my heart to see them go, part of me thought I'd hold onto them for the Princess but she'd probably scoff at me embarrassed by the thought of such old dresses on her newer styled body. So I decided to part with them. These dresses were really beautiful, perfect condition and smaller sizes. We sold them to an older lady whose daughter owns a consignm... Read Full Story

I don't think I had mentioned that my trip to the nut house, and yes I can call it that since I was admitted there, was in February. But Since I had been placed on a few different medications, I began to feel like a zombie. It got to the point that I couldn't function during the day. I could barely take care of my kids and without a support system, things were impossible. So I decided to scale back the medication myself.I was going to discuss this with my doctor when I saw her at our nex... Read Full Story

I am currently dealing with Post Partum Psychosis, only this isn't the first time I've been through it. I now know for sure that what I went through after my second pregnancy was not not post partum depression but also post partum psychosis which is much worse than post partum depression. My support system both times has been very limited not because of lack of care but because of people being busy, having to be places, etc. Last time, I had a feeling it was the psychosis I was experienc... Read Full Story

At the suggestion of my doctor, I went on the Atkins diet three weeks ago. He told me I needed to cut out carbs and sugar because I am at high risk of diabetes due to my weight and medication I'm on. It wasn't easy, (no bread) but it had perks (plenty of mayo, cheese & pepperoni). I lost eleven pounds in the first week so I felt like this diet was the one for me.The downside though was that I was having really sharp abdominal pains, stomach issues, and major exhaustion. Everyday was ... Read Full Story

After sending some pictures of my kids to my father-in-law, he sent me back a link to a photo contest and said I should enter the Princess in it. I decided to go ahead and do it. The contest is based on votes, which I don't really like. If you have the time, check it out, vote for my beautiful little girl. Of course they try to set you up with sponsors and what not but you can just click skip or pass at the top or bottom of each page.Thanks so much!Here's the link:https://www.greatameric... Read Full Story

This morning I checked out a site called AdJack, www.AdJack.TV. Here, you can watch a variety of commercials, have some laughs, and enter a sweepstakes to win cash prizes. Every time you watch a commercial, you receive a number. After receiving five numbers (plus one they give you at the end), your numbers are entered into their sweepstakes. The next drawing is set to be on February sixth. They also have a blog that I enjoyed reading, where they've posted past winners.Personally I like ... Read Full Story

I know that all parents are partial when it comes to how their kids look, but I have to say that my daughter is absolutely gorgeous. I think my boys are very handsome as well but I just can't go over how incredibly gorgeous my daughter is.Maybe it's the fact that I've wanted a little girl for so long, maybe it is just because I love her so much, whatever it is, I can't stop staring at her and taking a million pictures of her. I just got some pictures in that I took with my digital camera and... Read Full Story