I saw Jake today. Tonight. As I left work and walked to the train station. He didn't say a word to me and I didn't say a word to him. He passed me like he didn't know me, like just over 30 days ago I didn't tell him that I was carrying his baby. Isn't life pathetic this way? That a man and woman who barely knew each other could have unprotected sex and the woman gets pregnant and before you know it they won't even speak to each other when they pass on the street. That ... Read Full Story

Now I have 2 leases in my bag and can't choose. What a dilemma. One apt is small & cute, not much room but cheap in price. 6 blks from the train but right around the corner from the bus. Laundromat is around the corner and so are corner stores. I know the area pretty well. I grew up in it and that's NOT a plus. The other, $252 extra a month. Lots of closet space, more bedroom space, one block from train. Not the greatest neighborhood either. But I'm still not sure. I mean I wo... Read Full Story

Now I have 2 leases in my bag and can't choose. What a dilemma. One apt is small & cute, not much room but cheap in price. 6 blks from the train but right around the corner from the bus. Laundromat is around the corner and so are corner stores. I know the area pretty well. I grew up in it and that's NOT a plus. The other, $252 extra a month. Lots of closet space, more bedroom space, one block from train. Not the greatest neighborhood either. But I'm still not sure. I mean I wo... Read Full Story

So a bomb has fallen on me the other night. (The night after seeing a spider crawl on my screen in the middle of the night as I surfed the net. A spider I thought, what next a fuckin centipede! How about a goddamn scorpion to top it off!) I'd gone to meet the Realtor for the documents to bring to section 8 for that tiny apartment in crown heights. And to also see the apartment again so i could figure out what I would have to toss and keep when moving into my new place. This place is small... Read Full Story

Wikizines are interactive magazines that anyone can create or edit - and this one is called "The Disgruntled NY'er". Here you can find fresh voices and respond in real time. Some members write articles about recent news and trends related to the wikizine's topic, others recount relevant personal stories or share their favorite pictures and video clips. Got an interesting idea or story to share with other members of this wikizine? Well, then put on your journalist's cap... Read Full Story

for the 10,000 time. So I am done with James. Incase I haven't mentioned him he is...was my new partner that I got with about 2 wks ago. He was the friend of a guy I saw briefly this summer. Knew him (the friend) for a while, many years and...dated him. James came along kind of strangely. Calling me when I never gave him my number, saying he stole the number out of his friend's phone. I thought it was a set up all along and never paid it much mind. But when the friend (out of the clea... Read Full Story

So this wknd has been an interesting one. I saw one apt on Friday that was a literal match box. Did I mention this one already? Joint so small there isn't a real living room. There's like an area for a couch or sofa don't ask me where I'm going to put our beloved pet turtle. Let alone mention dresser drawers to put our clothes. I'm going to have to purchase expensive beds with built in storage units to survive there. Where will the kids bikes go? And I guess this means I t... Read Full Story

So last week, after being threatened to lose the apartment I agreed to rent because I wanted to view it once more to make sure this is what I wanted to do, (because I was hesitant about the area) and was about to drop a $1350 deposit on the joint I hear some truly fucked up news today. First let me say that this Realtor claimed she'd worked with this landlord before, and how she is a good landlord blah blah blah but now I'm wondering if she was just really talking some shit. So...the... Read Full Story

So I just finished posting a blog and already i've started another, why? To be thankful I have some place of my own to crash in approximately 2 wks *crosses fingers*. You know one of the things that irritate me about staying at my g/f's place is the fact that she and her son have no consideration. Like right now the kids are sleeping because we all have to be up and out early in the morning. And what is taking place? She is in the room with her son making so much fuckin noise I wanna ... Read Full Story

I've been lazy for the past fews days. not writing and all. not cause i couldn't but because I'm a procrastinator and this is exactly why I'll never complete my great American novel. by the time i decide to write that up the book market will be much like the music market is right now...no way to make any real money.So what has taken place since I've been gone? I saw a fabulous cabaret show in the city and was so joyous and inspired only to be on the train the next morning ... Read Full Story