Mixed feelings

Two days ago when I stood on the scale for the first time in a month, I had a very pleasant surprise as you guys already know. But right after that I started to have mixed feelings which sound paranoid, but it’s true.

Let me explain. Since I started this blog, I’ve been telling people that the only healthy way to lose weight is to change your habits, eat fresh food and exercise. However, that’s not what I’ve been doing. I haven’t been exercising and although I’m not eating that badly, my eating habits aren’t as good as they were before the scale fiasco.

I even started to doubt the scale because the next day I had lost another 1.8 lbs!!! What the f__: I’m not exercising and I’m not eating all that well, but I’m still losing weight? Fortunately for my sanity I gained weight today and oddly I feel good about it. At least now I know the scale is working and will tell me if I’m putting on pounds.

Looking back, I realize that even though I haven’t been following a perfect regimen, I am doing something right. I figure the reason I lost weight was because I was consuming less energy than I was spending. Of course it’s easier for a guy my size to lose weight than someone who is close to their ideal weight, but still I haven’t been able to do much exercise because of my leg and there are a lot of people who are heavier than me who really struggle to shed a few pounds. So I must be doing something right.

Over the last two days, I’ve started to accept that losing weight involves many complicated variables and that it was foolish for me to not celebrate the fact that I’ve lost almost 30 lbs in 2.5 months. Also I have to accept that I’m not going to change my lifestyle and habits in just 2 months. It will take much more than that, probably years.