Making Plans

I've let things slide because of work - I admit it.  I have high expectations of myself and I often fall short.  What happens next is that I spend a lot of time beating myself up for the fact that I have not been abe to reach my lofty goals.  This time I am thinking that I'm not going to waste my time beating myself up because,well, it isn't exactly what I would call a productive use of time.

Instead, I'm using the time to make plans on how to fix things.  Could this potentially be dangerous?  Yes.  Only because I probably am not allowing myself the time to take a step back and look at how I've objectively screwed up.  Yeah, yeah there's that "beating myself up" language, but you couldn't expect that it wouldn't creep in.

Here's the thing.  I recognized that I'm pulled in a zilliondifferent directions, but I'm finally realizing that it's a matter of prioritizing the directions I'm being pulled in.  For example, I've always known that my family is more important than work but during the week I spend more of my energy on work.  Knowing what's important and actually putting that into practice are 2 different things.

So now I'm forcing myself to compartmentalize work and personal and family.  I'm making plans with these differences in mind.  Why the change?  Because if I don't, I won't have a hope in surviving.