One Step at a Time-Stay in the Moment

Reset and Recovery-What do you do when the past and prospects of the future are so overwhelmingly stacked against you that the will to continue comes into doubt. Lets recap where I am and try to make sense of what has happened.

After surviving a very traumatic and stressful experience in New York that left me suffering from PTSD, depression and anxiety, I came to Phoenix to start my life over with my family. Not wanting to deal with the hurt and pain of the past I put it into a corner recess of my mind and set out to start my new life and provide for my family. Starting completely from scratch I was able to build a very successful company that provided my family pretty much anything they wanted while also allowing me more time to spend with them.

As the business continued to grow I realized one thing, my better half still did not seem to be happy and as time went by, we seemed to grow apart. As we continued to lose our ability to communicate with one another, I did something very stupid and had an affair.

The resulting four year slide that has culminated with my loss of everything including my three kids has left me in a state of total despair. The seemingly insurmountable financial and personal challenges that lie ahead of me are nothing short of colossal. Faced with a legal battle that I must fight on my own and a child custody battle that from what I can see as being nothing short of futile makes me wonder and beg the question; Why?

I have gotten my first glance at the medical records of my kids and the portrayal of myself as a monster is an understatement. Pile on top the financial obligations I am expected to pay back and the state of my current situation and “Vapor Lock” would best describe how I am progressing. This past weekend was a most definite step backwards that has left me re-evaluating everything. You find who your true friends are and to say I am a lousy judge of character is an understatement. To those who have stood by me, I Thank You.

I have no idea what the future holds moving forward, and the only way I can proceed from here is One Step At A Time-Living In The Moment. I can’t worry about the past or stress about the future but instead live each day -one by one.

This is a true survival story-one I am determined to have a happy, positive and successful outcome with.

With A Smile-Cory