Moving Forward

When rebuilding your life so many factors come into play that at times knowing which step to take first can be a daunting task to say the least. The OCD component of my personality doesn’t help the situation. It is so easy to stall in any attempt to move forward by letting the past get in the way.

I for the first time in my life decided to go to church Sunday and ask God for help and guidance in making the correct steps that would lead me away from the ledge of despair I have been running along and guide me towards a life of peace and happiness. I was so nervous walking into the Hall but I must say by time I left the service a sense of calmness and peace set over me that is hard to describe. I have set plans in motion including the start of a new job that will allow me for the first time in 5 years go on the offensive as far as living and controlling my life is concerned.

It is hard to explain but I have put together 5 very productive, happy and fulfilling days both professionally and personally that I believe for the first time in a very, very long time are starting to lay the foundation for my future. I do not want to get to far ahead of myself but I have actually felt like the old Cory this week. That in and of itself is a miracle because I never thought that would come back in any shape or form.

They say it takes 30 days of new thinking to create new neuro-pathways in your brain to affect real change in your thinking. Last Sunday was day one of positive affirmations that I will use to create these pathways. The cornerstone of these affirmations is my three kids and the hope someday I will get a second chance to be the father figure they expect and want to be around. I know someday that chance will come whether individually or collectively. No matter who I ultimately start my new life with, the kids will realize how much I truly love them.

With A Smile-Cory