Black Sunday + 2

It has been two full weeks since Black Sunday and if anything has become more clear to me, it is putting the past behind me and learning to not worry about tomorrow but accept today for what it is-a gift and a chance to start new and live the life I have always wanted. When I started this blog along with the website I wanted to keep religion out of what I was doing, but after Black Sunday it has become evident to me that not only could I not avoid God’s help and guidance in righting the ship, but excepting him into my life was absolutely essential. Now I am not talking about wearing a robe and building an Ark like Evan Almighty but what I am trying to say is I am willing to accept I can not do this alone.

Going to Church again seems to bring me a strength I have not felt ever. The underlying stress, anxiety and pain that has followed me now for as long as I can remember is at such a low level that for the first time since I was a teenager I feel normal.

I have spent so much time trying to avoid religion because I could not accept a God that continually allows bad things to happen that for the longest time I have tried to operate like the Lone Ranger believing I needed no ones help but my own. Changing that attitude I believe is the  break point for which positive things will happen.

I worked so hard at believing in the bad that now is the time to continue the transformation in my neuro-pathways that says it is time for Good to Happen.

With a Smile-Cory