Sunday nights are no picnic but from day one, Friday nights are the quietest by far...I need to make some noise! Read Full Story

Who would have ever thought that my favorite month of the year would be turned around and become a month that I almost dread getting here? I sure as hell didn't, but whether I want it this way or not, there's no changing the upcoming days. It actually has begun already, because my house that was ordinarily dressed for Fall shows no indication of what season we're in. Halloween was a favorite Read Full Story

Today is one of many days that I will have to face in the future completely alone yet for some reason markers like these make it more difficult to cope. Today is my birthday and for the past 50 years I have had someone to be with on this day; whether it be a parent or a sibling or friend...or a spouse. Someone told me that I needed to go a full year before I can know what it's truly like to Read Full Story

Fear of the unknown scares the shit out of me sometimes...yet isn't everything unknown until we experience it? So, I have to imagine that the fear isn't really caused by the unknown, the true fear is wondering how I'll handle it once I find it...that's what I have to get rid of...get over. Read Full Story

For some reason I was thinking of this today and felt a need to put it in writing; I think it may have been prompted by a friends post. It probably sounds like something none of us would consider doing, including myself but what if, either a man or woman, never used deodorant again, never shaved our faces or for the women, their legs, armpits, waxed their eyebrows, possibly their lips. Daily Read Full Story

It's more than mere clothes. There are books, lighters, unused gifts, birthday, Christmas, valentines day and just because cards in every nook, pay stubs, library cards, books that need returning, books that are hers, change galore, singles, fives, tens, pads bearing her name, earring backs, notes she wrote, wrappers, pens, eyeglass cases, eyeglasses, more notes, disposable razors, creams and Read Full Story

I know this is a tribute to a soldier but I feel it all, she really was my hero - why do I keep doing this to myself? Read Full Story

Good movie, better song, these are the things out of our control which are often better that way...... Read Full Story

Today marks 11 weeks; 77 days. That time frame would usually go so slow when waiting for something planned to happen although when counting the minutes from a loss the slowness is excruciating. Even though my minds eye can picture that night as if it happened yesterday, and at times it feels as if we were still together a few hours ago, it also feels as if I have just begun a prison sentence and Read Full Story

Crackled pink granite now bears her nameeternally her remains rest beneath itIn my heart I thought that this would help menot stoke the flames underneath it.Although the crashing pain seems less and lessas days pass I think that it easesWhen least expected some odd thought arisesand my entire body just seizes.What did I do to earn such a placein life where nothing feels rightI thought I was Read Full Story