I love music. I love to listen to the words of songs and to sing along. There have been many songs through the years that have really touched me and been like theme songs for me. I will play them over and over and they bring me so much peace and happiness. I have a new favorite that I can't get enough of. The words to this song are amazing. "What if it all goes right? What if it all works out? What if the stars line up and good luck rains down? What if you chase your dreams and it... Read Full Story

How is it that two things that sound so similar are actually so different? Love is easy for me to identify and it can be pretty innocuous - it can apply to family, friends, partners, in a way it's a safe word to tell someone because it can have such varied meanings. The bible says in 1 Corinthians 13 (ISV translation): Love is always patient; love is always kind; love is never envious or arrogant with pride. Nor is she conceited, and she is never rude; she never thinks just of herself or... Read Full Story

"I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content." --St. Paul This is the title and the beginning quote on July 1st of the book "Simple Abundance". The entire month of July was about treasuring alone time. There is a difference between being alone and being left alone (this was also pointed out this month, I just can't find the exact quote to credit the author). I have no problem being left alone. I often crave that. To have the emails stop swarming in. To have the phone... Read Full Story

Warning: This post might go down in my "neurotic" hall of fame. Tonight I'm going with the sadness for just a moment. This song came on the radio and I cry everytime I hear it. It is my life and I get so upset by it at times. Especially days like today when Ethan spent hours sobbing in his room last night that he missed his daddy. And then this morning again saying how much he wished his daddy lived with us and that I would get married again to have a very special baby. I tell him I'm... Read Full Story

When I'm stressed with demands, it's often the things that are best for me that I let slide first. The gym is the first thing to cross off my calendar followed quickly by my morning meditation. Both of which bring me so much peace and comfort. Today I was walking to my friend's house (he is so thoughtful, he picked up light bulbs for me today after dropping me off to a dark home last night) and realized I have let church just slip out of my routine this month. People where coming home... Read Full Story

I have run into this strange new phenomenon for me - a communicating man. I haven't run into it very often so I'm a bit shocked by this experience. I've been trying (I thought, but probably mostly by mental telepathy) to talk to someone about a concern I had. So finally last night I gave up the hints and just texted something like FYI I'm PO'd over here and feeling XYZ. I'm sure it took him by surprise, since even though I often think men read minds I guess they don't. Being an awesome... Read Full Story

I admit it, I have an eHarmony account. I signed up last year and every once in awhile when I get bored/lonely I'll open it up and go "shopping". If you've ever internet dated you know exactly what I mean, it's a very shallow experience. I actually wanted to join eHarmony enough that I went through their forever questionaire twice - the first time it basically said I was so messed up it couldn't figure out who the heck would be a good match. I met one of my favorite people thru that... Read Full Story

So I'm not a graphic artist - never claimed to be. This is my motto. I created it a few years ago to remind me of my values. I just wanted it posted somewhere in my little online history. Read Full Story

What do you desire? These words stood out to me this morning as I studied. When a word stands out to me like that I typically look up a scripture reference and almost always Psalms has something perfect to say. Psalms 37:4 "Delight thyself also in the Lord; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart". I struggle with s really knowing the desires of my heart - in my case throw the head in there too because I'm no good relying solely on either one. This goes back to my reading of... Read Full Story

In my last post I mentioned not wanting to stick a fork in Steve's forehead. Well, let's scratch that. If I saw him today, I'd jab that fork in as hard as possible. I got yet another dumping on me today. My favorite was his tirade about my "bullsh*t spiritual journey". I'm curious how anyone does have a "bullsh*t spiritual journey". How can anyone judge another's heart and feelings? How can someone judge another's relationship with God? This is one of the things that bothers me so... Read Full Story