I shouldn’t apologize for being who I am, but I do see, at least at times, how different I am from the “normal” world.  Today, I went to an employment agency. It was really by accident that I happened to get there but I decided to follow through. I had to watch a video and then take a test on the video. I apparently did very well  Nothing to complicated. I then met with a counselor. I was told I needed to dumb down my resume as most of my work experience didn’t fit w... Read Full Story

It has been an emotionally rough several weeks. Nothing specific except my endless need to beat myself up.  While I can make that statement, I become aggravated with my husband should he state something similar. I don’t need him to point out my failings, I excel at paying attention to my flaws. Anyway, my mood has been pretty “sucky” as they say, despite the joy of having my son home. But, he and my daughter do bring such lightness into my being.  Today was father’s da... Read Full Story

I started with my personal trainer today. This is not the first time I have worked with a trainer. I do hope that it is better. We are working differently than the last time I did this. We are not using machines and are working with my core strength — or should I say the lack of core strength. Part of my problem relates to the body memory which is strong with in me. I move into a posture and can easily recall how once I did the move with ease. I don’t think there was one exercise ... Read Full Story

I love to travel.  I went out to Indiana to help my son pack up his things for the summer and to come home. That in itself was a joy. But, before I could get there, I first had to go through the airport, board the plane, de-board, and board another plane. Most of it was fine unless you take in the aggravation of dealing with everyday folk. I am always reminded of an expression in those times when my patience is worn thin, that I love humanity. It is just people I hate.  I know this may sound ... Read Full Story

Besides spending time filling out profile forms on the computer for job applications, I decided to go down to the local Panera Bread and apply for a position advertised in the local paper. I had to force myself to change into more appropriate clothes and rushed out of the house before I could change my mind. Money, that is what was behind the push. Anyway, I walked in and asked about the job application. After I finished filling in their form, I noticed a knot of people in a corner. I saw a w... Read Full Story

It has been many years since my struggle to earn a living as an actress. Despite my talent, I labored under the perception of that the purity of my art, for which I was seriously trained and commercialism (earning a real living were not compatible.) I am no longer acting, at least not on the stage. But, I still struggle with my concept of art, commercialism, and selling out.  At the moment, I am working on a novel. It is a new area of writing for me and I avoided it with a passion. I didnR... Read Full Story

I just finished surfing the net — G-d only knows if there is a new expression for that now. That statement reflects how I feel at this moment. I read an article in the Times today about branding. Yuck. And, I was looking through the help wanted section of my local paper. There was an ad for a writer but the IT programs that were required, not just experience but expertise was astounding to me. If I wanted to be a techy, I would have studied that. I come from a background that is interdi... Read Full Story

I have been working on a piece about hormone replacement therapy. How distressing to learn that once again  the FDA has abandoned its obligation to protect the consumer and not the manufacturers. In this case, the pharmaceutical companies.  Presently, there is a strident campaign against bio-identical hormone replacement therapy. The basis for this campaign is the billions of dollars at stake for the pharmaceutical companies.  The is a place in medicine for more than one treatment. It seems m... Read Full Story

Recently, I went to a few  freelance writing sites to see what was happening there. I experienced two things. First, one must pay to join most of them and second,  bidding includes people from all over the world. I believe I stumbled upon a scam. I applied for a job and received an e-mail telling me to follow a link to finish the online application. I was led to one of these sites where I had to pay to get in. I thought that was a bit suspicious. Next, I found a site that allowed one to view ... Read Full Story

Recently, I started a facebook page. I did so mostly to be able to communicate with my son quickly –at least that was my plan. I don’t know that much has changed with our communications patterns but in the process I experienced something else entirely new.  A friend of mine, who is a conservative radio talk show host ( we rarely discuss politics these days) also recently started a facebook page. She  instantly had hundreds of friends. I received a request from someone on her page ... Read Full Story