lafirestone

I awoke to a troubled teenager girl. The past evening had been filled with tears and anger and confusion. Life can be hard on a normal day, but the drama of teenage angst makes it harder. I have heard people say they wish they were 17 again. Not me. I remember well my own angst-and mine lasted well past my teen years. I would not wish to return to that state ever. Since my teens, I have had my ups and downs, but I think I have learned to manage it better. I happen to be celebrating a... Read Full Story

I can’t recall the last time I came to post a blog. I know that is consider deadly for blogs, but then I haven’t really gotten it together so that anyone visits with any regularity. So, why write? I have been busy writing about addiction, detox, withdrawal and on and on. It is a job that is good to me. I have just started re-reading a novel that I have gotten half way through writing. I have been unable to touch it in about a year and a half. Life has a way of interfering with plans... Read Full Story

The year quickly draws to an end. For me, the year has been divided into two phases: married and seperated. I have been married for over 36 years. Wow. That is unfathomable to me, but then so is the birthday that quickly approaches in a few weeks- one of those major, decade changing bdays. While it was inevitable that the day would arrive as long as I continued to breathe, I never really thought it would approach so rapidly. It doesn’t matter that it took decades to get here. I still never... Read Full Story

Just spent 1/2 hr. going back and forth looking for a new look for my blog. I like the idea of a soothing photo. I was not able to find anything that pleases my sensibilities today. I don’t like dark colors for the blog, but I don’t want a plan screen either. If I were a bit more savy, I would design it myself using my photos. I don’t have the patience. So, for the moment I will continue to have the same blog look I have had for a number of years. This new year, however, I want to really... Read Full Story

I write this post, after neglecting my blog for a long time, with no clear intention. Part of my problem is that I have not connected with other people and do not know how to optimize my blog’s exposure. Sigh…. The year is drawing to an end. A decade is coming to an end. And, my marriage is ending. I have had control over the last ending. It has been a long term marriage that produced two wonderful children- my beautiful Miss L and my boy Ben.  I love both my children dearly though they can... Read Full Story

I wish I could state that working the keyboard referred to playing the piano. It doesn’t. Over the course of my now getting ever-so-long life, I have attempted to learn the piano several times. I was once told that I had a very sophisticated ear, far beyond my actual musical knowledge. I would begin to play and for one reason or another my separate would wane and I would stop. My mom played the piano regularly during my childhood but then she stopped. She was really quite good at it.  I... Read Full Story

Well, I did it. I finally went on my first cruise. I was determined to be prepared so I took Bonine and I wore wrist bands that have pressure beads.  I survived without major incidents.  Though, after I finally placed my feet upon the shores of my home, I did continue to rock for a day or so. Had I taken the Bonine then, I wonder if the rocking would have stopped. We went to celebrate, belatedly, my parents’ 65 th wedding anniversary and my dad’s 89th birthday.  They did well, though the... Read Full Story

About  2 years ago, my daughter began a campaign to get a second dog. Of course, she wanted a small little “cute” dog but every breed she chose seemed to be the type that disliked larger dogs. We already had a labrador retriever, Betsy, and she was much loved by us.  So, any other dog that was to enter the house was going to have to get along with Betsy. The search for Betsy’s friend and my daughter’s dog continued. During the search there were all manner of promises made about who would be... Read Full Story

When I was in my 20s and studying acting, I felt something missing.  I decided that I needed to challenge my intellect in a different manner than through theatre. I took some graduate academic classes as well. I did not know at the time that I would return to school to get my Ph.D. I enjoyed and hated working on my doctorate. But, I discovered that I loved doing historical research. I liked putting together the pieces of a time period to fill out the picture.  I am always excited when I... Read Full Story

Wow. This is great. I went to a women’s challenge day this past weekend. It was billed as an empowerment day. I was skeptical. I guess all these years of going to awareness workshops , reading, talking, and yes therapy have provided me with a keen sense about myself. That sense of myself does not relieve me from succumbing to my fears or insecurities it just provides me with an awareness that any particular moment I am acting crazy. Any way, the day began with the instructors being... Read Full Story