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I scream in the air, curse at the sky. Angry filled fury, ready to die. I fight and I kick, not holding back. Down on my knees, ready to attack. I strike at the ground, pound on my chest. Fight to the death, I give it my best. Violence unleashed, rage in my heart. Control the beast, must play it smart. Flesh is gashed, blood is spilled. Instincts take over, do not get killed. I ravage my enemy, take his last breath. Life is my reward, his is death. The crowd clears away, I return to my den... Read Full Story

Damn it That’s what I say Every time I look at my life Every time I see my face Damn it Stuck is this self-imposed rut Unwilling to move forward Unwilling to make a change Damn it Dying to be free yet scared to let go Suffering for no reason Suffering from the truth Damn it Why must I make my life this way Trapped within myself Trapped in this never ending nightmare Damn it And all I can say is damn it Damn who I am Damn what I have become Damn it Damn it all Damn it forever Damn the monster... Read Full Story

Falling down the upward staircase. One step at a time, each moment of my life. The harder I try, the faster it all slips away.Why do I try? Why do I continue to fight? Marvelously bright light at the top and vast darkness at the bottom. And here I am, stuck in the middle. Constantly fighting and falling. Struggling to survive. Damn you staircase! If only you would stop moving, perhaps I might be able to catch my step! How do you find balance in a world that won’t stop moving? How do I make... Read Full Story

Shattered lives of an unlived fantasy. I hear the breeze, but cannot feel the warmth. Flowers bloom, but do not smile. Lost at sea, I drift awhile. Life goes by, yet I remain the same. The beast within, I cannot tame. A hidden world you cannot see. One moment in time. A lifetime to me. I smell your hair, yet you’re not there. Sweetness left empty. I live in despair. Memories and dreams. What is real? A life of fantasy not revealed. Still I go on. A broken man. Peaceful journey? Or just lines... Read Full Story

Lost in a sea of despair I drift. No end in sight and nothing to hope for. Sadness darkens my heart. Numb to life and all that it holds. Ready to sink, ready to give up. The water is cold, and so is my heart. Please take me now as I don’t want to be here. The end is in sight, but not the one I want. No turning back now, I made my choice. Goodbye. Read Full Story

Thinking of you. Time passes by. Lost in loneliness. Waiting for tomorrow. Pictures of you fill my thoughts. I ache to be near you again. When will you return? I need you near. The smell of your hair. The touch of your skin. Your smile. And here I remain. Dreaming of you. Read Full Story

Why won’t you say it? Why do you not care? Use me and abuse me. Treat me unfair. You take what you want. But give nothing back. Why would you want to? No motivation for that. Well it’s my time to take. What’s rightfully mine. I should have done this long ago. But did not have the spine. My heart is no longer yours. I am taking it back. I hope that I can find love again. Before my heart turns permanently black. Read Full Story

I dreamt of you last night, were you there? You made me cry last night, do you care? The pain you gave me, destroyed my day. If I knew you cared, I would ask you to stay. You lied to me, hid behind my back. But when I found out, my life went off track. How could you keep that from me, hide him right in front of my face. You should not have done that to me, that’s not your place. But it was my dream you say, it’s not for real. It never happened, it’s no big deal. Yet you kill me inside, dying... Read Full Story

Stress, anger, rage inside, Help me fight the feelings I hide. Sadness, depression, misery, These are the things that consume me. Loneliness, emptiness, sorrow, despair, Should I go on I do not care. Madness, confusion, spite, hate, My life alone I contemplate. Death, darkness, cold, gone, Lost forever is my song. Read Full Story

Life falls apart, like leaves from a tree. Time runs away, yet I stand still. I look in the mirror, but do not recognize my own face. Who is the man in the mirror? What have I become? I am but a boy trapped in an aging man’s body. I hope for change, but know it will not come. Fate is what you make it, so I’ve been told. I know my fate, but hide it from others. A warm smile, a soft laugh. Both help me hide my fate behind a mask. Will anyone stop to look behind the mask, or will fate run its... Read Full Story